Stupid. I am just plain stupid.
It's sickening how much I would give at this point to have someone care enough about me to see what I am up to. To know they would read this to check up on me.
I am a gigantic idiot. Trying to vie for attention, thinking something in high fidelity likeliness might happen. I can't believe I trusted I was a real friend. I would never do what others did, but to lump me in such a group.
It hurts, you idiot. Why? Why am I the person that needs to be forced to see the truth without any warning? Just because I'm observant doesn't make me any more prepared for something I haven't had access to see in the past week or so.
You hurt me more. Congrats. I told you. You made my basis for a good man before, now I have nothing.
